What kills me is up to that last gif he hasn’t been making eye contact. He’s been lost in his own confusion and memories and even his lashing out is not from a desire to hurt everyone, but from flashbacks. He’s treated like a thing and he acts like a thing. Even his not answering how Pierce wants isn’t defiant, it’s like a broken record. He’s completely submissive to everyone in that room, disturbingly so. The scene was him being completely vulnerable (he has weapons pulled on him, he’s half dressed surrounded by men in SWAT gear, he looks like a chastened child).
But the last gif he makes eye contact. Because this question is so important to him. Seventy years of being a THING and there’s this glimmer of SOMETHING. There’s a name. There’s a person. There’s a chance he’s not just some weapon to be used and abused as needed. They talk around him, they ignore him, they abuse him…but this is important enough for him to pursue. So he makes eye contact. Like a HUMAN. That eye contact. That look of “I KNOW I know this…and I know you’re gonna take it from me…I know you’re going to hurt me for knowing this…but I KNOW it no matter what you say”. That second gif is regret that he can’t let go of this rabbit trail, but that third one…that third one says “I know you’re lying to me and I know that doesn’t matter because I’m too broken to fight back, but I know I’m right”.
No wonder Pierce doesn’t even bother to demand anything but wiping him after that look. His weapon just looked at him like a human.
EXCUSE ME, FANDOM, BUT COULD YOU STOP IT WITH YOUR ACCURATE AND HEART-BREAKING META LONG ENOUGH FOR ME TO PULL MYSELF BACK TOGETHER? THANKS.
Been wanting to doodle Peggy Cap ever since that text post a few days ago. I MAY prefer this to Steve haha. She’s SUCH a competent agent to start with and give her super soldier abilities and holy crap.
(quick edit. forgot to color the helmet strap. Whoops)
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